S.A.D. makes me well….. sad

Those of you that live in the places in the country that really see winter will understand S.A.D. Seasonal affective Disorder comes around as we get less sunlight.  Here in the upper Midwest we see less sunlight and then when we have storms like we have had a ton of lately there is even less sun to be had.  That makes for one sad sap here.

In all reality my hubs will agree, I become a bitch, it is like PMS moodiness and depression and all balled up into a nasty mother, wife and person in general.

Who had the bright idea to put Christmas so close to the Winter solstice, the day when we have the least amount of hours of sunshine, if it is out,of the entire year.  This is really not helpful in the holiday spirit thing for me.  That and this years rain/snow mess made for a depression filled time with momma short fuse here.  I tried to be the happy version of me but could feel the slipping if I wasn’t trying really hard to keep on track.  The harder I tried the shorter the fuse was.  Poor poor family indeed. 

It may have helped if the hubs had gotten me anything for Christmas whatsoever although I did have a huge smiling moment when Sassy asked why I didn’t get much for Christmas and hubs had to feel all guilty because they noticed, poor hubs-NOT.

So why the revelation of this S.A.D. thing-  Oh it isn’t a revelation, I know it is a problem but the sun came back the last few days and I am feeling back to me and not stewing in my own juices instead.  Do you live where this causes problems and do you feel the effects yourself?

Today not so S.A.D.

Resolution of SANITY

I have spent much of this year taking a good long look inside myself…. trying to figure out who this person is over 10 years after I began having children and who I want this person to be as my children grow up.  I don’t have infants anymore and as the kids get older they do not need me to be the same kind of mom that I am when they are infants.   I need to find the me that is not the mom of an infant.  Have you seen her anywhere?

Some of the things that I have seen on the inside I have not liked and those things I am having to face and deal with in order to get past and through them.  Other things that I found in there are things that I forgot that I enjoyed or haven’t given myself permission to enjoy in a long time.  One of these things is photography.  Yes I take tons of pictures of my children but that isn’t exactly what I mean.  I want to take pictures that make people feel something.  I want to learn everything I can about lighting and shading and all the magic that you can do with a camera.  I am hoping to use all this knowledge and pursue photography as the children get older and the ME not the mom is back in control of my life.

Where is your me?  What is she/he doing?  What does he/she really want to do?

disco post kind of

Seems all it took was nothing to figure out the audio so after giving up and uploading it anyways there was audio there.  So my lil man rules the dance floor with his back ground dancers(Sassy and lil miss) and a guest appearance by JoJo our Mastiff who kind of takes over when she enters

not the post I want to write

Ok so I didn’t post yesterday because I spent the day trying to get a video from my blackberry to upload on our computer, which was easy but with no audio.  The video is funny but without audio not quite as much.  Lil man is shaking his money maker to Staying alive, you know the disco hit.  It was priceless and caught on the phone but drat.  I am still working on this upload because it is too precious and possibly embarrassing for him as he gets older not to post it.  Need hubs, my computer geek to save me though since I can’t get it to work.

Did I mention he is in just a diaper, lil man not hubs.  His newest thing is to shake that butt as soon as any music comes on or if he is just being sassy.  Hope this doesn’t send him in any future career paths.

Tonight the girls both have their holiday concert at school.  Hubs and I are being sane but bad parents and only having one of us go.  Lil man will not last for over 2 hours through 2-6th grades singing 3 songs apiece.  That much stillness will throw him into his new screaming fits and one of us would embarrassingly have to leave anyways so we are just going to take care of that from the start.  I know we should take him and train him to be able to do this but hell he is 2 and next year he will be older and we will try it then.

So until I get that video fixed…… later

School bus delayed 2 hours

So we headed outside with the whole gang to play

There’s lil man hammin it up

Sassy headin for the deep ditch snow

My nephew lil D trying to maneuver on lil legs
Now we are all warmed up and have even finished our mom and dad projects which are baking away.    Pics later for those.
Hope your Monday is going well too

Momma Bear woke up

Everyone knows that when a mother feels her children are being threatened in any way the Mama Bear wakes up and comes out growling.  Well lil miss R has a teacher that just woke Mama Bear.  Last year miss R had the best year ever(her teacher last year is a rare one if you are reading Mrs. F we love you!) this year though her teacher is a rare one but in the opposite sense.  My growl has started my claws are out and I am hoping the principal and I can meet to make sure there isn’t a mauling. 

Don’t mess with my cubs!

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AHHHH Winter has come with a vengeance!

Tuesday night the snow started here and by the time it was all over Wednesday night there is almost 18 inches on the ground!  Again I say why do I live in Wisconsin?  Oh that’s right family and friends and the seasons changing blah blah blah…..

So along with the shoveling that comes with all that snow plus a little playing in the snow(mental image of a 2yo in 18 inches of snow)freakin hilarious.  The mom that I am had a project or two all lined up for my children.

Ginger bread houses.  The girls each had one to make and lil man needed something too so we….

made one from graham crackers but he put so much on the roof that it caved in.  Then he had more fun just…

Eating crackers with frosting on them.  Much better when you are 2!

Today is COLD!!!!!!!!  School is back in and so we are back to waiting for the weekend.

Slow down I am trying to get off…

Ok this month is flying past.  My time to plan and shop and decorate and ENJOY, yes especially the enjoy part, is on the fast track.  When will I get it all done.  This Saturday we are meeting up with some old friends for a sorta kinda Christmas.  Next Sunday we have the in-law Christmas extravaganza(big family).  Then it is Christmas week already.  So my online shopping has hit a stand still and I actually have to go into a store(gasp) to get the rest of my deals.  Target looked at my christmas list I know they did and put many of the things that I simply must have on sale this week so that is where you will find me tonight.  I know I could wait until later in the week but let’s be realistic tommorrow and Wednesday it is supposed to dump snow on us.  Thursday night would be cramming too many things into one day and Friday I am going out with some friends.  That puts us at Saturday when we have plans and kids along and then the sale is over so you can see why tonight is it.  Hubs was likewise convinced unless maybe it is just that I talked so fast that he only caught part of what I said and agreed to it just to look like he was listening.  He wouldn’t do that would he.

Also got a cal from a long lost friend who made my day today.  If you are reading. HI!!!!   I will talk with you soon.  Hope we can make some plans soon.

Interview questions from Mommy wants Vodka

1) Do you like sprinkles on your ice cream?  God no!

2) If you had to choose one word to banish from the English language, what would it be and why?  mediocre  come on it’s average any way you look at it

3) If you were a flavor, what would it be?  right now I would be chocolate but there are days I would answer lime

4) What’s the most pointless annoying chore you can think of that you do on a daily/weekly basis?  folding clothes-  I am the only one in the family that respects the fold once it leaves my hands anyways

5) Of all the nicknames I’ve ever had in my life, Aunt Becky is the most widely known and probably my favorite. What’s your favorite nickname? (for yourself)  It was only used by a handful of people but Angish Hashish was the coolest one I have had otherwise nothing else worth mentioning

6) Your stuck on a desert island with the collective works of 5 (and only five) musical artists for the rest of your life. Who are they?  Jason Mraz, Colbie Calait(I know that is spelled wrong), Rick Springfield(don’t ask), Plain White T’s, and Billy Joel

7) Everything is better with bacon. True or false?  True but I don’t prefer bacon by itself

8 ) If I could go back in time and tell Young Aunt Becky one thing, it would be that out of chaos, order will emerge. Also: tutus go with everything. What would you tell young self?  Never ever settle and anything you believe you can do you CAN do

Thanks Aunt Becky

Deal search- Oh Amazon I stalk thee

Ok so last year I was the deal hound and didn’t pay full price for one gift.  I scoured Amazon and Slick deals and Woot.  I looked for clearance stuff at Target and Walmart.  I was proud of me!  I bragged about the deals.

 

This year I have gotten a few deals but Black Friday and cyber Monday were not all that I had hoped(at least not off of the lists I am holding)I have some deals under my belt this year but I’m not braggin not even particularly proud of them.  Why couldn’t people ask for the stuff that is under the big deals?  Well I guess it wouldn’t be their list then would it.

 

In all honesty I just want to be done shopping and for the darn holiday to just get here already.  Where is the holiday spirit, where is the jolliness, it must be stuck wherever the snow has been staying cause we haven’t even put our tree up, the cards are still in my Walgreens file and I haven’t even begun to think about cookie baking. EEEK  what is happening to my supermomdom(yeah I made that one up and spell check doesn’t like it).  Maybe this year I have finally realized that supermom doesn’t enjoy the holidays because she is either too busy or too tired from being too busy.  

 

Later Supermom never did like you that much anyways!

Oh Amazon post me some deals man or we are so over!